As I move to this next phase on the program I have mixed emotions. On one hand I am so worried. Do I have the discipline to maintain my weight for 2 weeks w/ no real weigh in? How much weight can a person really gain in 2 weeks? How do I stay skinny w/o my consultant? And who is in my time slot? Maybe I should just drop in next Saturday to say hello. On the other hand I am also a little excited about the change. Does this mean I can be trusted? They really think I can do this by myself! Yay me! I have arrived!
It is all very bittersweet. Jenny and I really belong together. "What God has joined together let no man put asunder".... or something like that. I think I will drag this separation out as long as possible. Like I will weigh in bi-weekly for 2 months. And then I will go monthly for like a year. That should make this less painful! For now I am going to focus on the next 2 weeks. The goal= not gaining any weight. Its go time. Peace.