Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I am Hopeful

The feeling of being hopeful has always been extremely important to me. (I think the word "hopeful" itself is so beautiful.) There have been many times in my life where hope alone has kept me going. Some people need happiness, love, and I don't know what else. But what I need is hopefulness. I need to feel like things can get better. Possibly, in the future, there are good things that could happen that I may be involved in. I need to be hopeful. (And I mean this in the most Un-Obama kind of way possible.) I need real hope... like the kind you find at Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

I am doing better tonight. I am feeling hopeful. I have been so discouraged by my injury and my setbacks lately. It is so easy when one is down to just focus on sad things and sit in negativity. (My kids are naughty. I miss my Mother. My husband travels. My foot hurts. Please Sarah... Pull it together!) But tonight I am feeling better. I am hopeful. For the first time since my surgery I am noticing a change in my pain level in just one day. Jack made me sit in one place for 5 hours w/ the TENS unit on. When I got up I could notice a difference in the pain level, from when I had sat down. Its not huge news... but enough to put a smile on my face.... enough to make me hopeful. As I hobbled to my bed tonight I thought "This doesn't hurt too terribly bad." When I looked in the mirror I actually was smiling about it. Ahhh. Hopefulness. Think about it... what makes you hopeful?


Grace said...

I am so glad Jack could come home to be with you this week. Think beach! Beach! 23 days til we are sipping margaritas on the sand.

Anna said...

I am so glad that you are hopeful! Say "Yes We Can!" jusssst kidding! Thinking of being at the beach makes me feel very hopeful.... and hopefully Jack will make his tacos on night one.... hopefully we'll get tan...hopefully the kids will go to sleep early....hopefully Denny won't cry when I kill him in poker...

Shirl said...

and hopefully it won't rain while you're there! We're at the beach now and the weather stinks and I'm sick....hopefully I can change my annual leave to sick leave when I get back!
Hang in there Sarah.
love you.

Anonymous said...

Stay hopeful Sarah.....The body heals it just takes time. I missed an entire season at the beach but I stayed hopeful I would get back there....Today I walked the beach and was thinking how long ago that one summer seems now.
Gentle hugs..

Marie Durb said...

Hey Sarah,
I check your blog every now and again, and I am so glad you're feeling hopeful!! I hurt my back last January and it took many months to get it back in shape. Yuck. However, I am finally feeling better and even went on a backpacking trip to Alaska recently! Whoo-hoo! I have been so inspired this last year by your Jenny Craig stint and your impressive running again! One day at a time, and you will be back in business.. God bless and love hearing from you!!! Thanks for this recent blog! Marie Durb :)

Honeybee said...

That verse is one of my favorite. Whenever I'm feeling down, I will refer to this. God has a perfect plan for me. Don't lose hope.